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October 18, 2011
Embracing Life, In The Face of Sorrow
I’m going to share with you but please don’t worry about me. It’s not the top season of my life, but God has me, He has a plan and He’ll provide, but in the meantime I feel I need to continue to share my ups and downs. I’m struggling with sorrow, like a lot of it. I have never really felt depression. I was designed as a kind if top of the world type of gal. I have taken antidepressants for years (and will continue to, I believe) but not for depression, more for monitoring highs and lows. What I’m battling now seems more like depression.
September 19, 2011
Short and Sweet
I’m doing extremely well. I have been working on a post that I plan to have out later today that will be a colorful illustration of my surgery experience. I have been anxious to encourage you with God’s provision; He has truly given us more than we could as or imagine. Praise be to Him! I love you all so dearly!
August 15, 2011
I Just Want to Live
Sometimes I see live TV and all the laughing and carefree attitudes and I long for those days again. I know my family does too. Cancer is heavy; I felt carefree at first but going into my second month, knowing my journey is just beginning is a bit depressing. I guess with all the TV and books on cancer, doctors appointments etc., that I’ve been adding to my life, I have gotten my eyes off The Lord. Pre-cancer I didn’t really watch TV (we’re talking no American Idol, Oprah, Lost, News…nothing) instead I fill my mind with the images I glean from Christian radio, as I go through my days. However, lying in bed, it’s so easy to flip on the TV. I’ve found my self-watching movies that I could never tolerate before because of the offensive nature; I quickly became less sensitive to the (lack of) standards of the world as I have been engaging in it. As a result of replacing the spiritual things in my life with the things of the world I have found myself depressed; less willi
July 29, 2011
Miracle
It turns out I was on the edge of the of the study, but Praise God I made it. With a clinical study everything must line up precisely. I was very close to many borders, but I made it! The reason it is so critical to me is because with this study I go from radiation treatment five times a week for five weeks to four treatments period! This is still a prelude to surgery followed by chemo, but it is a miracle.
July 25, 2011
Today is a Big Day
I go for an MRI and to meet the chemo Dr. today. I'm a bit weary, my energy is pretty low and I can't tell why. My colon symptoms have lessoned in the last two weeks with your prayers and my diet, but for some reason my energy is low. Maybe my body is repairing, maybe it's the fact that I don't have any stimulants (coffee, ADD meds, or sugar) or perhaps it's the cancer. I still need a PET scan to see where cancer exists. I'll let you know. I believe in miracles, do you? What if the MRI shows a smaller tumor? I'm hopeful, just tired.
