March 28, 2013
No one knows, better than my precious boys, about my yearly crying spells, stemming from innocent spring walks, through the forbidden section of Nordstrom. It’s the pastel pink, linen and lace... panties, tights and ruffles. Dresses displayed on tiny hangers. Smocked, layered with tulle or imprinted with the year’s color scheme.
February 8, 2013
I have also shifted my gaze to the world, especially in this season. It is not what I wanted, envisioned or worked hard to accomplish. With my eyes focused on my circumstances life got heavy and depressing. I got self-conscious, insecure and critical...Like a crocus through a winter storm, I’m poking through.
January 6, 2013
What girl doesn’t desire to hear that she is pretty? That longing can lead the purest of hearts into precarious places. Misleading arms entice her insatiable yearn to be valued. Her craving serves as a perfect channel for another’s satisfaction. Society has cast the illusion that females get the same relief from sex that guys do and that a one-night stand is just as fulfilling for her as it is for him. Girls long for intimacy. While we may feel satisfied briefly ultimately we are left feeling used and ashamed. Our self-image tanks as a layer of filth drapes our identity.
January 2, 2013
Tremendous sorrow grows in a heart that feels abandoned to one’s addiction. If you don't love someone who suffers with addiction, you are possibly in denial or you are living an extremely unique life. The pain of addiction can be all consuming, it destroys quality of existence and often can be life threatening. It is tempting to explain to an addict that if they would just stop using, the destruction will stop, plain and simple. Tragically that is not how it works. It is hard to understand that addiction is not a choice, an addict is actually powerless over it.