God’s Grace/ Connecting with God
October 31, 2011
In the days before my surgery I had a day at Hopkins for some intense scans. My pain was at a premium and my bad beckoned me as I got a PET scan and an MRI. What I wasn’t prepared for on that dark day was a miracle, a complete change of heart, as I caught a glimpse of God’s plan through my suffering. I have been blessed with so many caring friends and relatives who have graciously reached out to me in love, that list included a distant cousin, Linda. A long list of unreturned calls lay in my path, but as I passed time between scan appointments, the Lord prompted me to return Linda’s call. My day was transformed as she told me about a group of women that she works with in a Sober House, she had shared my story with women who were fighting the beast of addiction. Amidst their own trials, they were lovingly following my journey and rooting for me; finding this out altered the cry of my heart!
October 18, 2011
I’m going to share with you but please don’t worry about me. It’s not the top season of my life, but God has me, He has a plan and He’ll provide, but in the meantime I feel I need to continue to share my ups and downs. I’m struggling with sorrow, like a lot of it. I have never really felt depression. I was designed as a kind if top of the world type of gal. I have taken antidepressants for years (and will continue to, I believe) but not for depression, more for monitoring highs and lows. What I’m battling now seems more like depression.
October 11, 2011
The results of the surgery and the initial recovery process have shown a clear indication that I have been the object of a ton of prayer! Though I knew it all along, the physical (and unforeseen/unprecedented) agony that I suffered from the radiation blocked me from feeling the tender touch of prayer; I had to rest in my faith in those dark days. Now however, that pain is gone and I feel like a walking answer to prayer, in fact if you ask me today how I am I’ll say, I’m a product of answered prayer. (If you prayed, no matter how much, how little, how long or deep…thank you, He heard you all like a chorus and you blessed God, me and I have to believe yourself as well!
September 26, 2011
During Jesus’s ministry on Earth, many needy and spiritually starving people surrounded him. He was called here for such a thing, so I don’t mean that to sound like it was a burden, but the fact is that hoards of people were drawn to Him all the time; to actually get an up-close place in His presence must have been a enormous challenge. With such physical restraints, much of Jesus’s healing was dependent primarily on faith.
September 25, 2011
We pray for blessings We pray for peace Comfort for family, protection while we sleep We pray for healing, for prosperity We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering All the while, You hear each spoken need Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things