Blessings
April 24, 2012
Thank You!
I am bursting with gratitude! Thank you to each and every person who prayed for me, encouraged me, thought of me, believed in me. I am slowly getting my life back and the first sign was that I was able to get up early and meet with my Lord in our special spot. I haven't done this for many months and I feared I'd lost it, but no, I only grew in my desire to be fed of His word and to be in His presence. Absence makes the heart grow fonder. I love Him more than ever before and I thank Him for the cancer He allowed me to have so that I might be refined and that you might have the joy of seeing how mighty He is! Thank you. Please share how He has blessed you through my suffering. PS I’m anxious to speak, please consider asking me to a women’s/girls event!
April 20, 2012
Family by Any Definition
For way too long I camped on the fact that my parents divorced when I was five. Truly it was a horrifying, and the fallout certainly contributed to many paths that I desperately needed redemption for, however those same paths made me the woman I am today and that divorce set the stage for a display of forgiveness and acceptance that I would never have known without that break in my family. Now I’m a grown woman with a family of my own and when I go home to Texas to visit my parents, my boys and I have a huge blessing waiting for us. Instead of dividing up times to go between my mom’s and my dad’s homes, what we experience is this: One night my stepmother and my dad host dinner welcoming my mom and her husband, my step mother’s ex-husband and wife (as he is the father of her children), my step-siblings, including my stepbrother’s ex wife and her boyfriend (as she is the mother of their granddaughter), and anyone else who holds an intimate part in the hearts of our family
February 13, 2012
Sincerely Thankful for Cancer
I write to you from an airplane on my way to Jamaica, for a short, sweet getaway with the man of my dreams! I never tasted life the way I do today, I have to say I’m increasingly thankful for the path God has put me on. Simple tasks like running errands, eating salad, exercising and being around to have my boys make me laugh are of great value to me these days. I’ve gone all out, turning over leaf after leaf, uncovering new styles of dress, an increased sense of adventure, original ways of spending my pastimes, and sincerely relating to those with physical handicaps. How shallow things were for me six months ago; appearance prevailed. I had no comprehension of how one might live the life I live today. Before my diagnosis, I bounded out of bed, greeting each day, full of energy and zest. I’d huff and puff, hour after hour, racking up accomplishments, never stopping, until my head hit the pillow where I’d lay lifeless, until I was ready to greet the next day. Though I enjo
December 19, 2011
2011: A Year In Review
It’s hard not to start a 2011 letter with the cancer diagnosis, but there was life before July 1, 2011: It started off as an excellent year; I was convinced it would be one of the best years in recent history. In February I set off for my annual breakaway to Denver, where I attend the Christian Writers Guild’s, Writing for the Soul conference and where I heard clear direction from the Lord about my writing. Ever since He revealed my gift, and called me to this ministry, I have been trying to beat the system, jump into the big league without paying my dues. That is a huge leap for a girl who coasted through school on her personality and neglected some pretty rudimentary education as a result of serious, undiagnosed ADD. However, the Lord’s message was sharp for me, it was time for a change, personality alone was not what He what He had in mind, He called me out of my comfort zone. I was to go back to the basics wit h my writing and start from square one, with the promise that
December 7, 2011
Something Has Changed
Something has changed! My chemotherapy is technically in place as a preventative measure, in case the cancer unknowingly spread yet I am beginning to feel so different that I am beginning to think perhaps the preventative measure was necessary; perhaps the cancer had spread and is doing its job. Since the chemo began I have wanted nothing more than to quit; I have been certain I don’t have cancer in my lymphatic system. However, I can tell after 3 of the 12 rounds that something has changed! Although it wipes me out beyond words, I am experiencing a feeling of health that I can’t explain. This is leading me to believe that just as I was wrong when I insisted my former bowel issues could not possibly be cancer (yet actually were a bit greater than stage three rectal cancer) I now believe that I was possibly wrong about the cancer being isolated to my former rectum. I am beginning to think I might need the chemotherapy. I am grateful for the medical research and protocol that I
