May 27, 2012
Dear Olivia, I never really knew you, except to see your pretty face in the hallways of church or perhaps AACS. You probably knew who I was (as many girls know me to be Brooks…Travis…or Blake’s mom). What you never would have guessed in your short life was how God would use you to prepare me for the path He had planned for me, since the beginning of time. You paved a road that otherwise could have left me devastated. We are approaching the one-year anniversary of your passing and I am (secretly) joyful for your close friends and family, as I know from experience, a year is the beginning of a period where the pain from deep wounds will begin to heal. Many will always suffer from losing you, but as time goes on, the pain will be less and less raw. I am reminded that we are approaching the one-year anniversary of your passing, because it was the day after your funeral that I found out I had a cancerous mass in my rectum. There was no way for me to be anything but c
May 25, 2012
It’s been a long time since I’ve been here. On one hand I feel a bit guilty for keeping to myself, but on the other hand I am so liberated to be putting first things first. For example I am not feeling pressure to write, and I need that break right now. I have given myself permission to just live, and boy am I appreciating it. I’ve not been writing, but it is not because I have forgotten about you and how you have loved me through it, you cannot fathom my gratitude, but I am just defragmenting (computer lingo for getting rid of things that aren’t necessary so the things that are necessary work more efficiently).