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June 18, 2013
The Flight (Attendant) Nazi
I could have thought, “Well she’s tired, she has worked hard, and it’s her job to get things put in the proper place.” But what I was thinking was “I really have a personality clash with this gal and I hope she’s able to do her job well if there’s an emergency (since she stated she only had five hours of sleep and her trip seems to continue for days and days).”
June 5, 2013
Strength for Today (and tomorrow)
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.
May 29, 2013
A Little Gratitude Child, Please!
I wish I didn’t hold my kids to standards of gratitude and appreciation that I don’t keep in my own heart.
May 11, 2013
and They Will Know We are Christians by Our Judgement
I promise you, of all the things God has informed me that are wrong with my life, the only thing He's ever said to me about what's wrong with your life is how wrong I am to judge you.
May 5, 2013
I’m a Suicide Survivor
The pain was so thick I could barely breathe. In an instant it would all be gone and I’d be free. I knew it was wrong, but that was not enough to hold me back. It was impossible to imagine what life would be like for those I love.
April 27, 2013
The Blessings from Listening to and Obeying the Sweet Whisper of God: Sissy Pastirik
Like an airplane slamming into a building, the phone call altered the life I had known just a moment before.
April 20, 2013
My (Step) Extra Mom
The honeymoon began to simmer and she wanted me to have boundaries, unlike any I was accustomed to. She had expectations in her home that I did not like and did not want to adhere to. I did everything my rebellious teenage soul could, to make her look like the bad guy.
April 6, 2013
Suffering Produces…
What I wasn’t prepared for was that while I was fighting for my life, there was a group of loved ones, under my roof, who were watching me suffer, up close and personal. I know they heard me groan when it felt as though burning, shattered glass was expanding within my rectum. I know they heard me cry and vomit. They saw staples hold my skin together and chemo drip into my hurting body.
March 28, 2013
The Easter Dress (No MORE Tears!)
No one knows, better than my precious boys, about my yearly crying spells, stemming from innocent spring walks, through the forbidden section of Nordstrom. It’s the pastel pink, linen and lace... panties, tights and ruffles. Dresses displayed on tiny hangers. Smocked, layered with tulle or imprinted with the year’s color scheme.
March 24, 2013
I Am a Sinner
In the church where I grew up we didn’t talk a lot about sin. We talked about love and acceptance, but sin was the part of the gospel we sort of skipped. You can imagine what a surprise it was for me, at 27, to learn that I am a sinner. It turns out gossip, judging and other things I ranked as rather petty are actually what God calls sin. Pedophilia—white lies, we grade them according to what we think is better or worse; but God sees it on a level plain.
March 15, 2013
Just Thinking Out Loud…about being a woman.
When they said, “You can’t have anymore babies,” I was ok. At 42, having birthed 4 sons (the youngest being 8) I was done anyway, right? I also knew if I didn’t go through with the cancer treatment I probably wouldn’t live. There wasn’t much to be said.
February 26, 2013
February 29 – Remembering a Best Friend and Our Litany of Tom’s
It’s been ten years since I lost her. I don’t remember feeling the sting of death quite so severely. We were intimate, yet I did not know her deepest secret. It was the mid 1980’s. Best friends at our New Jersey boarding school, Liz and I had the ability to ignite vitality into any situation. We were brazen and we were entrusted with entirely too much freedom.
February 17, 2013
Letting Go Of My Babies!
Admittedly, I didn’t faithfully turn to God for comfort. I lost sight of His authority to handle all my trials. Rather, I looked inward and saw failure. I looked outward and found disappointment. It took some hard days before I looked upward and found peace.
February 8, 2013
Where’s Your Gaze
I have also shifted my gaze to the world, especially in this season. It is not what I wanted, envisioned or worked hard to accomplish. With my eyes focused on my circumstances life got heavy and depressing. I got self-conscious, insecure and critical...Like a crocus through a winter storm, I’m poking through.
January 30, 2013
Mad at God?
I know He wants me to spend time with Him but I don’t want to, I’m mad. I’m mad that my teenagers seemingly hate me, though I have devoted so much to them. I am exasperated, disillusioned and frankly feeling severe heartache. So I sit here across from my Bible study refusing to open it because I’m heartbroken. I have faced a lot of hardships in my years but feeling rejection from my children has to be the most painful.













